I think its way too late for me.

In my next issue of whining, about something. I know, I HAVE NEVER whine in my blog for the record but I had to get this off my system. It's pestering me like a blardy freaking splinter on my nail or more like a thorn in my brain.

This is a totally unrelated matter to the previous post. Yeah, people don't usually whine on their blogs. But wat the heck blogs are meant to be some form of medium to channel your thoughts, opinions, happenings and your life. It's more of wat you want to blog about. Not something that is wrong or right to me. More like a freedom of choice but, done with care and responsibility(if you know wat i mean...)

Yeah, this is something which I also kind of regret but I feel that this is going to affect me a blardy blardy blardy long time. Some people think I'm just weird that I'm like that. Not NORMAL were some of their comments. Some think I'm part of a different group. Some call it a minority group but trust me I'M NOT part of it.

Maybe it's juz being typical Bryan Wong. Maybe it's how life has treated me. Trust me life's experiences have barely supported me on this matter and it has never been kind considering the recent sequences of events which has totally blew me away. Till this day, I still can't grasp the entirety of this most misfortune event. I have always been sceptical about this issue despite all the millions of advice people has given to me, "Why don't you try??" "What's wrong with it?" I will politely say "NAh.., not ready" "It's not time.... yet" or the famous and safest answer would be "I dunno..." It might sound like I'm perfectly fine with those kind of questions but really if I was brazen enough I will say this with utmost clarity, "Cos I don't want to laa... For what?? Life's better without it. It only leads to problems." but this is what I do when the voice in my head when it says, "Hey dude I think you should do something about it..."

I've never believe in it nor dwell in it but despite being very firm and adamant in my beliefs, I guess life could have a funny way of changing your stand and believes. I just don't see it yet. Part of me wants it and the other part of me thinks it's just something you can live without, a disturbance, a total annoyance and a total incarceration of your own freedom. It's strange that as much as I don't want something, the more it pops up in my mind. Probably it's a sign I should do something. But still, I don't see any reason to explore this treacherous path.

Until then, this bunch of rhetorical riddles may have baffled some of you, but my suggestion is that you should just forget what you've read. Cos when someone runs out of ideas to blog, all sorts of junk starts coming out. Ahem, not all of my "no-ideas-post" are that boring either!!!